节哀顺变

一年之内，我的外公和外婆都不在了
今天早上9.30am 就接到我妹妹打给我的电话
她说：外婆不在了，你几时可以回来？
我只说尽量
一切都出乎我意料之外，只是短短的三天，就告诉我说不在了
为什么？？？！！！！
今天有presentation, 我告诉我的leader我的状态不好，找人代替我
今天活在不知所措的情况下
我没有你们想象的那么坚强，我也不能忍受亲人一次又一次的离开
明天就赶回去sitiawan， 希望家人的情况以及心情不会太糟。
today many coursemate ask me: y u look so tired, so emo?? although u look like normal but feel that u r so emo, so unhappy.
ya, i don want you all to ask me cause i don want say many times my grandmother passed away, it will remind me and force me to the truth. i just want to 4get it... just one day... let me 4get it....
let me still believe that my grandmother still at my home, she is watching drama with my family...
this few month happened so many things on me, i so tired liao....
i don want to faced it...
i want rest....
don tell me be strong...节哀顺变,i support u.... this all thing i also know it... but when u do it, this is so difficult...
the thing not happen on you , u wont have that feeling....
really...let me recover it by myself....
thx to you all....